Monday, January 29, 2007
lunes na naman
kim wants to quit her job. odezza wants to do the same. a year ago, i had the same thought.
kim has been doing the same job for more than 3 years. Odezza is doing the same thing for 10 months. I for 7 months.
kim says she wants to quit because ayaw na nya. odezza wants to quit because she doesnt want the commitment her job requires from her. i left my former job because i was so frustrated with so many things that time.
kim says she wants to quit even if she havent found a new job yet. odezza looked for a job first before she quit. i left my job with no assurance that i could find a replacement instantly.
i dont know why i am sharing this. it looks like an introduction of a more profound thought, right? but sorry to disappoint you, this entry is indeed pointless :p
i just wanted to write but i dont have the clarity of mind to even compose a nice entry. argh....
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its only monday but i feel like its the middle of the week already and its so weird that almost everyone at work felt the same. maybe we just had so much work today.
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life's little blessings. waking up in the morning. walang pila sa fx. light traffic. cool breeze. busy yet light atmosphere at work. having a good laugh. being with friends you rarely see. receiving your tax adjustment. reading an inspirational mail. upuan sa mrt. getting home safe. hay...life is good.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Home Alone on a Monday
- Naiiinis ako sa bagong telenobela nina Kim and Gerald (or Gerard?) because it will (a) make me stay up late just to catch Maging Sino Ka Man or (b) make me loose my patience and go to bed right after ive had my dinner. I mean, tama na ang Deal or no Deal at Super Inggo na pampatay ng oras habang naghihintay kina Bea at John Lloyd. One hour of mediocrity is enough for me to have dinner and wash the dishes so having another 30 minutes of nonsense (not that Maging Sino ka man is full of sense :P) is just so....argh. Frustrating.
- I had a full day and i LOVE it! Namimiss ko na kasi ang mga madugong araw sa J5 kung saan puro rush ang trabaho. So having a super duper busy day after days of idleness is a welcome thing. Its actually a good way of starting the year.
- Little blessings in life. Nice sleep. Waking up in the morning. Buying a pair of shoes without knowing that it is on sale. Free sumptous snack because of a coworker celebrating her birthday. Being told that you look good. Catching a feel good movie. Light traffic on your way to work. Free chocolates. Mail from friends. Good music. Aaahh...life is good.
Monday, January 08, 2007
foto.larawan
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Happy New Year!
What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Go out of the country!
Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I cant remember them.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Ate Raquel
Did anyone close to you die?
No.
What countries did you visit?
Thailand! Ill never forget that place. Lots of interesting and shocking stuff.
What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Direction. Hefty sum of money in my bank account (grin)
What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
A lot.
February 7, when my sister left for Saipan;
March 25 when I gave my resignation letter to my former boss and we had a short but emotional talk wherein I almost cried. Hay, im such a cry baby.
March 27, when I went back to my old school, shared the little things I know about learning in grade school and learning for life and seeing young hopeful faces actually listening to what I was saying and my teachers smiling.
June 1, first day of (new) work.
November 25 when my sister came home for vacation and I spoiled her moment because we were 2 hours late.
December 25 because its going to be the first, among the many Christmases that we will be having without my sister in the country. We’ve celebrated Christmas away from each other but its really different this year.
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting out of my comfort zone.
What was your biggest failure?
Not keeping my promise to myself to start saving.
Did you suffer serious illness or injury?
Nope. Hopefully not in 2007 and 2008 and 2009 and so on.
What was the best thing you bought?
That P280 pants from Divisoria.
Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mommy and Mimi.
Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Not counting the politicians and the regents who voted for the tuition hike in UP? Ang mga lalaki sa buhay ko, ang tatay at kuya ko.
Where did most of your money go?
Food I guess…
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Gala’ out of the country!
What song(s) will always remind you of 2006?
In my life
Nobela
Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder - happier
ii. Thinner or fatter - thinner
iii. Richer or poorer – poorer
What do you wish you'd done more?
Read books…and write.
What do you wish you'd done less of?
Working.
How many one-night stands?
Nein. None. Wala.
What was your favorite TV program?
Amazing Race! Wanted to join that one.
Grey’s Anatomy.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope. I don’t want to hate people.
What was the best book you read in 2006?
Oh no, this is not right, I only read one book in 2006. And it is not even a real book! Pathetic. The answer is none.
What was your greatest musical discovery?
None.
What did you want and get?
A new job; changes from my monotonous life
What was your favorite film of this year?
Happy Feet!
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Oh I prepared Rigatoni with Bolognese sauce which came out looking funny but tasted good. JI turned 25.
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Hmmm…boylet? (evilgrin)
A volunteer job.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
Oh I lost my estudyante get up and made a lot of effort to look more corporate because of my new job. I still couldn’t get used to it L.
What kept you sane?
My sister.
Regular movie dates with my officemates..
Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I got hooked on Chad Peralta but it is slowly wearing off.
What political issue stirred you the most?
Coup d’etat
Who did you miss?
Ate.
Sezy Dezy and Kimtot
J5 friends.
Who was the best new person you met?
Cant pick one. I met a lot of good people this year.
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
Don’t wait to let things happen, make them happen. Live your life now.
What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself?
That Im a nice person.
The most touching experience you've had this year?
Got a big hug from my cousin’s son. He is 13 and he couldn’t walk by himself. He couldn’t talk and only communicates through grunts. Im not sure if he remembers other people’s faces. I think I only saw him thrice. He came during my uncle’s wake carried like a 4-year old kid. And when I came to kiss him, he hugged me real tight and I felt like that was one of the most sincere hugs I’ve ever got.
What did you like most about yourself this year?
I became more sociable.
What did you hate most about yourself this year?
I worry too much about being an adult instead of just living it lightly.
Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
You gotta be cool
You gotta be wise
You gotta be stronger!
Was 2006 a good year for you?
Yes but challenging.
What was your favorite moment of the year?
January 25.
What was your least favorite moment of the year?
February 7 and December 9. Hay, I hate goodbyes.
Where were you when 2006 began?
Nasa kalsada at nanonood ng mga nagpapaputok.
Who were you with?
Mommy, Daddy, Ate, Mimi and Manang Ateng
Where will you be when 2006 ends?
I don’t know. Let’s see where life will bring me.
Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
My family.
Do you have a new year’s resolution for 2007?
Yes.
Save more.
Go back to school.
Read more.
Give to charity.
Eat healthy.
What was your favorite month of 2006?
January.
Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006?
Nope.
Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yes. My sister.
What was your favorite record from 2006?
Kami nAPO muna..
How many concerts did you see in 2006?
None, not even one of the UP fair concerts.
Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2006?
Barely. I only had small doses of alcohol in January, Mae’s birthday, and twice in December.
Do a lot of drugs in 2006?
Never although we wanted to try Marijuana haha
You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Don’t think so.
How much money did you spend in 2006?
I don’t keep a record of my finances.
What was your proudest moment of 2006?
march 2006.
What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
Couldn’t remember. Wala yata.
If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
December 29, 2006. Sana hindi na lang ako nagparelax. Putik, nasira buhok ko!
What are your plans for 2007?
Go back to school.
How are you different now that the year has ended?
I think I matured a lot and ironically, i realized that im childish in many ways.
What are your wishes for the new year?
That its gonna be a happy year and that changes do not come as often as they did in 2006. But if they still do, I wish that I still have the strength to face them without worrying too much.
Friday, November 03, 2006
FX Scene
And then I heard a song from the radio, and I had a duet with Peabo Bryson, but of course in silence. I was singing in my mind and looking blankly at the person in front of me, without any intention of infecting him with the melodious tone of the song. Suddenly, he woke up, raised his head, and sang in a gentle tone “we had a once in a lifetime, but I just couldn’t see, until it was gone… if ever you’re in my arms again, this time ill hold you much better, this time we’ll never end.” He looked at my direction, and in surprise, I looked away.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Sur(reality)
I’ve cried about this. We’ve cried about this. We talked about this, yet, I still feel weird.
This is not the first time that I’ve dealt with this kind of story. But its different now because I’m so affected by it. I was not able to sleep the first time I heard it. I was thinking about it all night long, yet answers do not clearly come to my mind. I was trying to think straight knowing that this was the right thing to do. Yet, the understanding and acceptance also engulf me, and sometimes, overrides the rational mind I’ve been trying to empower.
Aaahh…life. Maybe I just have to deal with it. One part of me says I want to but the other says I don’t ...
Big Bang
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I can feel it now. The emotional stress is slowly seeping though my veins. This is what ive been waiting to happen. The feeling of becoming, the feeling of reality.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
before sunrise
Daydream Illusion
Limousine eyelash
Oh baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look into those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweetcakes and milkshakes
Im a delusion angel
Im a fantasy parade
I want you to know what i think
I dont want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where i came from
No idea where we're going
Launched in life
Like branches in the river, flowing downstream
Getting caught in the current
I carry you
You carry me
Thats how it should be
Dont you know me
Dont you know me by now
ito ay bunga ng matiyagang pagtranscribe habang pinapanood ko ng pang-hindi-ko-na-mabilang na beses ang before sunrise. salamat sa aking fellow before sunrise addict na si dezas para sa mga corrections.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
pasq 2005
pagkatapos ng mahaba-habang paghihintay ng masasakyang taksi, papuntang diliman, nakarating din kami nina dez, ava at vhang sa up upang makiisa sa buong sangkaupihan sa taunang pagdiriwang ng lantern parade.kakaiba ang lantern parade ngayong taon. madaming booths sa buong acad oval. may booth ang bawat college kung san nandun yung lantern nila, meron ding booth para sa pagkain, at meron din namang mga tiangge. yun nga lang, masyadong malaki ang oval kaya nagmukhang kulang at magkakalayo ang mga booth, at nagmukhang konti ang up population para tumao sa mga booth.
ang saya ng parade kahit mejo masakit sa paa at sa batok dahil sa kakahanap ng magandang posisyon. favorite ko ang parol ng wind mula sa college of fine arts. yan yun, yung nasa lower right. pero mas masaya ang fireworks display! yun nga lang, masakit din sa batok tsaka mabaho pagkatapos.
at nung gabing yun, parang lahat positive. ang saya ng mood, ang ganda ng fireworks, ang ganda ng buwan at first time kong ma-appreciate ang carillion. (tama ba spelling?). para itong isang malaking pigurin na nag-eemit ng light. at ang buwan, ang ganda ng pagkakaposisyon sa gitna ng mga ulap. parang tagpo sa isang painting.
ang saya ng pasko...lalo na kung madami kang pulburang naamoy, pakiramdam mo ang saya ng mundo. sana araw araw pasko.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
going down memory lane

agreeing to see ultraelectromagnetic jam was one of the best decisions ive made in my life. weeks before the concert, i was still hesitant to say yes because of some things at work but what the heck, i said yes ayway. and im glad i did.
im an eraserheads fan since i was in high school. when my classmates were going crazy over nick carter and the backstreet boys, i was drooling for ely buendia and the eraserheads. when they announced on NU that they were disbanding, i was one of those who got sad and really disappointed. when zach and joey were interviewing raymund and buddy, waaa gusto ko talagang umiyak!
im not an artist and i might not know music from its technical side but i say that the music of eraserheads is really good. eraserheads was one of the few local bands i have respect for because they proved that they were really musicians and not just a bunch of angry, repressed youths who just wanted to have some attention from the public or some band who think that shouting peace and producing eardrum-splitting sound would make them real rockers and artists. you could see the evolution of their music and the focus of their songs. their songs changed from mundane concerns of the youth (love interests, friendships, being "high" hehe, etc) into more mature and profound issues. its just too bad i think that many of the fans did not cope with the progression of their songs until they reached the point when many were already losing grasp of them and when people could not relate anymore with what they were saying (singing).
buti na lang, may ultraelectromagnetic jam! ngunit sayang, bawal ang camera. my friend's camera was confiscated so i did not take the risk to take pictures during the concert.
i took this photo of the stage after the performance na.
the concert was good although some of the performers were not (evil grin). south border's version of my favorite 'with a smile' was too pop, even orange and lemons'.
i went wild with the crowd when i saw ely and the other guys in the monitor, talking about being eraserheads. you could see that the crowd still has that respect (or idolatry) when they gave marcus adoro that standing ovation when he played base for paolo santos. i thought they will have that sort of "rendezvous" and play one more time, together, for the crowd but, i was wrong. i hope they'd do that, at least before they die (hehe ugly).
anyhow, the entire experience was great, even if the ending came so sudden na parang bitin yung dating ng concert. it was nice to relive those glory days when eheads was still reigning over all the stations. mabuti na lang at nakasama ako sa isang henerasyong napasaya ng eraserheads. i really hope the four of them could play wonderful music once again.
Friday, November 18, 2005
a night of total magic and --- evat

i went to see harry potter last night! yeah, harry potter himself, not the movie (well, in my dreams). i was so excited that i even had this picture taken. i felt like a kid about to see her favorite cartoon movie. haha (please dont throw stones or popcorns at me).
everybody seemed to have a single destination that night. parang lahat ng tao sa gateway paakyat sa 4th floor. And the queue for the tickets was really long that night. its a good thing that we bought our tickets a week before. saved us the stress of having to wait for minutes just to get good seats.
i was so giddy that night. i was hoping that the movie would turn out great because there were some apprehensions at the back of my mind that it would just be...mediocre.
the movie was made for kinds and not really for the book aficionados. it really focused on the triwizard cup and neglected some of the details that may have had big impact on the overall story. it is a good movie i think for people who did not read the book but a bit short and incomplete for people who know the book. one major spoiler i think was the lack of a portion showing the quidditch finals between scotland (or ireland) and bulgaria, where scotland (or ireland) won but krum got the snitch. isa pa namn yun sa inaabangan ko.
nevertheless, natuwa namn ako sa movie. the great effects made up for the lapses. i love the festive mood during the quidditch world cup. kaya lang hindi pinakita yung ibang mascots, especially the veelas whom i wanted to see.
my other favorite scene in the film was the arrival of the durmstrang and beauxbaton students (although the description was a bit different from the book). and krum was so damn goodlooking! he was not supposed to look that way... and, he got to deliver 2 lines, one was when he talked to rita skeeter and the other was when he said goodbye to hermione, with the matching good bye wave. haha funny
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after the movie, we headed straight to the food court to have our dose of carbohydrates and fats. at aba, nakakagulat na ang presyo ng mga pagkain sa fastfood. side salad is still 20 bucks but chili rice already costs 25, plus 10% tax. at ang bacon mushroom melt ay 100 pesos na. grabe...
krismasi mood
Thursday, November 10, 2005
idle moments
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
creepy holiday
friday night. master ram died.
saturday. deza's lola died.
tuesday. tess' mom died.
but the death which brought me with an unfathomable abyss of sadness was dumbledore's death. waaaa....wala na si dumbledore. at isa pa, nakakalungkot naman ang love story nina harry at ginny. ang ikli lang ng panahong pinagsamagan nila. si harry kasi eh, gagaya gaya kay spiderman. haha
i cant wait for book 7!!!
Saturday, October 29, 2005
eulogy for a master
i am not really fond of the old people here in the office. but master ramirez is different. he always has that smile plastered on his face. and that laugh, ang nakakahawang "tawa". he is the master of supplies. he is the master in that small kingdom just below the stairs, where all the office supplies come from. he is like an oil refinery, always ready with coupons for people who need gas.
master ram has a big heart. too bad he died from it. he is like a (grand) father to us. when things were going sour between EPs and researchers here, he understood us. he was mature enough to point out that respect is the primordial thing needed for our differences.
but what i remember most was this image of him, in his athletic shorts and sweaty shirt, panting while walking, because he could not cope with the pace of the regular joggers. its the image of an old man, trying to remain healthy.
its been three weeks (or more) when we received the news that he was at v. luna because of heart problems. we were planning to visit him there but then, we heard that he was already transferred here in the camp so we assumed that he was ok. but still, there were plans of visiting him, none of which pushed through.
and now he is gone. there is none to visit anymore. just his remains.
goodbye master!
i love friday nights (or do i?)
but its ok. i havent done this in a long while. and besides, its the start of a long weekend tomorrow. yey! hmm...what'll i do?
get a massage? probably finish reading harry's 6th year in hogwarts? eat a lot of junk foods while watching reruns of simpsons (thanks avs for the info)? run to my brother's place in the mountains of antipolo and play with my nephew? update my blog? organize my photos? work on a budget for my christmas gifts? clean the house?
aaahh... i wanna do all of these. but for now, i need to get home and get some sleep.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
sentimyento ng isang mananaliksik
ngayon, iisipin mo, sana hindi mo na lamang naiiintidihan ang mga bagay-bagay upang sa gayon ay hindi mo ito problemahin o sana isa ka na lang sa mga taong walang pakialam upang sa gayon ay hindi ka mahirapan. sana....
Friday, August 12, 2005
kapag umuulan at tinatamad ka
Thursday, July 21, 2005
bad times, good times
Life has been good to me as well as to people around me for the past few days. I think this is nature’s way of rewarding me after a month of worries, exhaustion and sleeplessness nights.After a month in the hospital and occasional moments of bringing paranoia to us, my Dad can now walk! Yey! My mom and us kids were like parents na nagbabantay sa bawat kilos ng kanyang anak. Every development was like a reason to celebrate…nung ndi na (sabi nga ni mommy) garfield ang eyes nya, nung mejo nagagalaw na nya left arm nya, nung mejo nakakapag close-open na sya at nung mejo nakakapaglakad na sya with some alalay. Pero ngayon, nakakapaglakad na sya talaga mag-isa sa tulong ng isang mahabang piraso ng kahoy. He looks like an ermitanyo but he definitely can walk now! Sayang nga lang yung wheelchair na binili haha
And since my parents and I are now staying at my brother’s house in Antipolo, l now have the time to bond with my sister in law and my nephew. Grabe nakakatuwa na sya at lagi syang ngumingiti pag nakikita ako. Sipsip sa tita ninang.
After a month din, nagkita-kita kaming tatlo nina Sezy Dezy at Kimtot yesterday. Grabe namiss ko bonding moments naming tatlo…endless panlalait or pag-aanalyze sa relationships ng mga tao sa Starbucks, congee sa chowking, kain sa KFC, at wala lang. Hoy , may utang pa kayong lunch/dinner/gimik sa min ni Lala ha.
And after centuries of waiting, na-upgrade na PC ko. XP na sya! Ngayon, ndi na nya klangan ng installer para makapagbasa ng flash disk at salamat, ndi na masyadong sasakit ang ulo ko sa paglalagay ng animation sa mga presentations ko.
Hoys is leaving for Singapore next week. After years of trying for different universities abroad, she has been awarded with a scholarship by the National University of Singapore. Kudos to you Hoys and good luck!!! Dapat magtop ka sa class ha. Tsaka pag nag-Singapore kami, dapat sagot mo in-country expenses namin. Hehe
Zina has a new phone. Ganda! Grabe, kami na lang ni Ava ang ndi nag-a-upgrade. Now you can answer your Jimimimi’s call in an instant. Ndi mo na kailangang maghalungkat sa bag mo para maghanap ng mouthpiece.
After three years of not looking at any socio book or readings, nabasa ko na naman ang isa sa mga words na lagi kong nababasa sa mga readings at naririning kay sarah raymundo: panopticon. Haha grabe, ang bobo ko na. Kung dati feeling ko ang dami kong alam at ang aking bokabularyo ay napupuno ng mga salita at konseptong mejo intellectual, ngayon puro acronym at abbreviation na lang ang laman nya. haha thanks to cris. buti na lang may blog. naalala ko tuloy 142(or 140?) class ko kay raymundo.
I love life. Will i love life more kaya if i have a lovelife? haha nevertheless,i love life and the pains and joys that goes with it

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