i got this from ala paredes. google-ing one's name =)
and no, its not about narcissism, its more of plain curiosity. its just a matter of wanting to know if i exist in the world wide web.
and so i typed in, lxxx xxxx pxxxxxxx. result: 2 hits haha sige na nga. courtesy of j5 days pa yan ha.
fast forward to 2007. sa kabilang bahagi ng mundo, may tao din palang gumagawa nito.
he types in: pasaraba. his motivation? he wants to connect to his relatives in the far east.
you see, our surname is a unique one. kokonti lang ang may ganitong apelyido sa buong mundo. kaya kung sinuman ang lumabas sa net na kaapelyido ko, malamang iisa ang pinanggalingan namin.
thats why my family was really thrilled when we got a mail from my cousin whom ive never seen since birth. the family moved to the states when they were still kids. the parents come home once in a while but they (the kids) never had the chance to come back and visit.
eerr..there was one time pala when he almost met my older siblings. his ship docked in subic but too bad, they didnt get the schedule right. so sorry na lang.
i worked in the armed forces for 3 years. yearly, we participate in bilateral wargaming exercises with US troops. pero sorry pa rin, hindi kami nagkita.
buti na lang may friendster, na sa tingin ko ay parang NSO sa lawak ng database. lahat yata ng tao may record dito.
anyway, im really happy for the gift of the internet and friendster. brings long lost relatives together.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Saturday, May 26, 2007
syet celeb!
before, it was theater
now, its blogging
haha my sister is making waves. she was featured blogger of the week in inquirer. wala lang, not really a big deal but she is my sister so its a big deal for me haha
read more here
now, its blogging
haha my sister is making waves. she was featured blogger of the week in inquirer. wala lang, not really a big deal but she is my sister so its a big deal for me haha
read more here
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
changes
Evolution is an imperfect and often violent process.
A battle between what exists and what is yet to become.
Amidst all these, morality loses its meaning
The question between what is good and evil becomes one simple choice, survive or perish
----- HEROES
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wala lang. feel ko lang baguhin template ko. Nawala tuloy ang mga links ko =(
A battle between what exists and what is yet to become.
Amidst all these, morality loses its meaning
The question between what is good and evil becomes one simple choice, survive or perish
----- HEROES
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wala lang. feel ko lang baguhin template ko. Nawala tuloy ang mga links ko =(
Monday, May 14, 2007
boredom
boring din pala pag walang ginagawa. =)
this is my realization after having 2 whole days of well...idle time.
i used to love these moments. but now, man, its tiring! nakakapagod matulog! nakakabore kumain ng kumain! nakakabobo manood ng tv maghapon! (syempre pagkatapos bumoto)nababato na ako!
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excited na ako sa pagdating ng martes. im looking forward to having my nose and ears bleed. at least, even for just a week, my dream of getting a feel of how it is to be an atenean will be realized. syet, ang babaw ko! haha hmmm....tingnan nga natin.
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yey! estudyante na ulit ako! im going back to up this june. this time, seryosohang pag-aaral na ito. sayang naman ang tuition pag bumagsak or nag-drop ako. oble, namiss kita! namiss ko ang kasimplehan ng buhay up. namiss ko ang kayabangan ng mga tao dun. pero ang pinaka-namiss ko, ang pag-iisip ng mga taong nangangarap baguhin ang mundo.
after the exam, of course, i prayed that id be accepted. sayang naman ang 300 kung hindi ako pumasa no. at syempre, nakakahiya din haha
i was asking myself why i would still want to go back to up. bakit ko gugustuhing bumalik sa unibersidad na may bulok na facilities? pwede naman akong maglasalle lalo na at P100 lang naman ang pagitan ng tuition per unit. pwede din naman akong mag-ateneo kung magtitipid lang ako. (thinks: pwede din kaya akong mag-aral abroad?)
aside from the yabang reasons, i realized that what i like most about up is the kind of thinking it instills in its students. kaya ang rason ko kung bakit gusto kong bumalik sa up? gusto kong magrecharge! gusto kong ibalik ang idealism na unti unti nang nawawala sa akin! sure this may not help me climb the corporate ladder fast but this is the thing that will drive me to do better. so sana, marecharge ako =)
this is my realization after having 2 whole days of well...idle time.
i used to love these moments. but now, man, its tiring! nakakapagod matulog! nakakabore kumain ng kumain! nakakabobo manood ng tv maghapon! (syempre pagkatapos bumoto)nababato na ako!
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excited na ako sa pagdating ng martes. im looking forward to having my nose and ears bleed. at least, even for just a week, my dream of getting a feel of how it is to be an atenean will be realized. syet, ang babaw ko! haha hmmm....tingnan nga natin.
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yey! estudyante na ulit ako! im going back to up this june. this time, seryosohang pag-aaral na ito. sayang naman ang tuition pag bumagsak or nag-drop ako. oble, namiss kita! namiss ko ang kasimplehan ng buhay up. namiss ko ang kayabangan ng mga tao dun. pero ang pinaka-namiss ko, ang pag-iisip ng mga taong nangangarap baguhin ang mundo.
after the exam, of course, i prayed that id be accepted. sayang naman ang 300 kung hindi ako pumasa no. at syempre, nakakahiya din haha
i was asking myself why i would still want to go back to up. bakit ko gugustuhing bumalik sa unibersidad na may bulok na facilities? pwede naman akong maglasalle lalo na at P100 lang naman ang pagitan ng tuition per unit. pwede din naman akong mag-ateneo kung magtitipid lang ako. (thinks: pwede din kaya akong mag-aral abroad?)
aside from the yabang reasons, i realized that what i like most about up is the kind of thinking it instills in its students. kaya ang rason ko kung bakit gusto kong bumalik sa up? gusto kong magrecharge! gusto kong ibalik ang idealism na unti unti nang nawawala sa akin! sure this may not help me climb the corporate ladder fast but this is the thing that will drive me to do better. so sana, marecharge ako =)
Saturday, May 12, 2007
sabado
1130 ng umaga.
nakaupo ako loob ng cubicle. nakatingin sa pc. kakatapos naming pag-usapan ang plano kung paano isasakatuparan ang pagrerevise sa isang manual. nagawa ko na din ang report ko. hmm...ano pa ba kaylangan kong gawin?
makapagbasa nga muna ng news.
http://www.inquirer.net. ay boring ang news.
ah, magbabasa na lang ako ng matinong article!
http://www.haringliwanag.pansitan.net
opening site....
smartfilter.
the site you requested is blocked.
please contact your system administrator for site review.
HUWAT! putik, natunugan na ng ISD ang aking libangan! hay, pano na ang periodic dose of wisdom ko? huhuhu
Kainis! Blocked na sa ofis ang blog ni jim paredes. sad face...
nakaupo ako loob ng cubicle. nakatingin sa pc. kakatapos naming pag-usapan ang plano kung paano isasakatuparan ang pagrerevise sa isang manual. nagawa ko na din ang report ko. hmm...ano pa ba kaylangan kong gawin?
makapagbasa nga muna ng news.
http://www.inquirer.net. ay boring ang news.
ah, magbabasa na lang ako ng matinong article!
http://www.haringliwanag.pansitan.net
opening site....
smartfilter.
the site you requested is blocked.
please contact your system administrator for site review.
HUWAT! putik, natunugan na ng ISD ang aking libangan! hay, pano na ang periodic dose of wisdom ko? huhuhu
Kainis! Blocked na sa ofis ang blog ni jim paredes. sad face...
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
maligayang araw ng paggawa
alas-tres na ng madaling araw pero gising na gising pa rin ako. bakit hindi? walang pasok bukas dahil araw ng pagdiriwang ng mga manggagawa sa buong mundo.
pagkatapos ng 4 na taon ng pagtatrabaho, ano ang dapat kong ipagdiwang?
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dahil ipit ang lunes sa dalawang araw na walang pasok, halos walang tao kanina sa opisina. tahimik! masaya haha minsan lang kasi maging tahimik sa opisina. madalas maingay! ewan ko ba, ang lalakas ng boses ng mga tao dun. malalaman mo kung ano ang pinag-uusapan nila ng nasa kabilang linya ng telepono. feeling mo tuloy nakikipakinig ka kahit hindi naman. tsismosa!
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ina and i were talking about mikaela fudolig's speech this afternoon. she responded to the forwarded email i sent to the group, with a note that reads: i guess the idea is not just for UP people but for every Filipino youth.
she said she had goosebumps while reading the speech. well, who wont? as usual, we had one of those (pa)profound discussions about idealism, adulthood and life. i dont know why but whenever we chat, we usually end up discussing about serious things in life.
told her that i loved the speech because its so young and so idealist. i remember that i once read an article written by a parent who has a kid who graduated from ateneo. she (or he, i couldnt remember if it was a father or a mother) noticed how the valedictory speech seemed like a rhetoric. she was a bit disappointed because she didnt see the youthful idealism that she expected to see from a person who is fresh from school and who is supposed to have fresh perspectives about the world. and she was asking, was an expensive atenean education worth it? i dont mean any offense because i know that there are a lot of idealist ateneans out there, who might be more idealist than me, but that article just came back to my mind while reading mikaela's speech. maybe if the mother could read mikaela's article now, she wont lose hope in the youth.
anyway, ina and i were talking about how idealism, in a way, gradually wears off during adulthood (at least in our experience). when youre fresh from college, you have these dreams about making a change, about holding on to the values you learned from college, about living a principled life, about defying the norm in the interest of truth, about serving your country, serving the people who sent you through school, about giving back to society. but as you work and live in a dynamic environment wherein people's minds are not as easy to understand and couldnt be explained by a single theory, you learn about a new concept, that of compromise. as you meddle with people who 'have been there', you learn that somehow, you need to reorient yourself in order to survive, that somehow, you have to sometimes 'relax' your personal rules a bit and you'll have new sets of principles. and as you immerse yourself longer, you slowly realize that the idealism is waning, that youre becoming more pragmatic. not that its a bad thing but sometimes, the guilt is there.
she was telling me that this kind of idealism is peculiar of up. that in la salle, people were more self-absorbed. that social consciousness is not a norm. i couldnt react because i dont have any friends from la salle aside from her and cams. and she said she also does not have friends from up aside from jen, dangs and me. and so we appreciate the interaction, the exchange of thoughts, the sharing of perspectives.
sometimes i feel shame for myself. nahihiya ako sa nakababatang sarili ko. i always dream about change and talk with my friends about making a change but it ends there. i always talk about wanting to volunteer for some NGO but that remains unrealized up to now. i dont have the bravery that mikaela is talking about. i cant defy the pressure to lead a comfortable life. im not making new roads. im not a trailblazer. im just a part of the mob, the majority who walks through the clean, cemented path built before me.
maybe its maslow's hierarchy of needs working here. maybe not. maybe using maslow is just a good justification of my actions but the truth is im on my way to failing my younger, idealist self from its dreams. i dont know. maybe. i hope not.
i really want to go back to school now.
pagkatapos ng 4 na taon ng pagtatrabaho, ano ang dapat kong ipagdiwang?
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dahil ipit ang lunes sa dalawang araw na walang pasok, halos walang tao kanina sa opisina. tahimik! masaya haha minsan lang kasi maging tahimik sa opisina. madalas maingay! ewan ko ba, ang lalakas ng boses ng mga tao dun. malalaman mo kung ano ang pinag-uusapan nila ng nasa kabilang linya ng telepono. feeling mo tuloy nakikipakinig ka kahit hindi naman. tsismosa!
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ina and i were talking about mikaela fudolig's speech this afternoon. she responded to the forwarded email i sent to the group, with a note that reads: i guess the idea is not just for UP people but for every Filipino youth.
she said she had goosebumps while reading the speech. well, who wont? as usual, we had one of those (pa)profound discussions about idealism, adulthood and life. i dont know why but whenever we chat, we usually end up discussing about serious things in life.
told her that i loved the speech because its so young and so idealist. i remember that i once read an article written by a parent who has a kid who graduated from ateneo. she (or he, i couldnt remember if it was a father or a mother) noticed how the valedictory speech seemed like a rhetoric. she was a bit disappointed because she didnt see the youthful idealism that she expected to see from a person who is fresh from school and who is supposed to have fresh perspectives about the world. and she was asking, was an expensive atenean education worth it? i dont mean any offense because i know that there are a lot of idealist ateneans out there, who might be more idealist than me, but that article just came back to my mind while reading mikaela's speech. maybe if the mother could read mikaela's article now, she wont lose hope in the youth.
anyway, ina and i were talking about how idealism, in a way, gradually wears off during adulthood (at least in our experience). when youre fresh from college, you have these dreams about making a change, about holding on to the values you learned from college, about living a principled life, about defying the norm in the interest of truth, about serving your country, serving the people who sent you through school, about giving back to society. but as you work and live in a dynamic environment wherein people's minds are not as easy to understand and couldnt be explained by a single theory, you learn about a new concept, that of compromise. as you meddle with people who 'have been there', you learn that somehow, you need to reorient yourself in order to survive, that somehow, you have to sometimes 'relax' your personal rules a bit and you'll have new sets of principles. and as you immerse yourself longer, you slowly realize that the idealism is waning, that youre becoming more pragmatic. not that its a bad thing but sometimes, the guilt is there.
she was telling me that this kind of idealism is peculiar of up. that in la salle, people were more self-absorbed. that social consciousness is not a norm. i couldnt react because i dont have any friends from la salle aside from her and cams. and she said she also does not have friends from up aside from jen, dangs and me. and so we appreciate the interaction, the exchange of thoughts, the sharing of perspectives.
sometimes i feel shame for myself. nahihiya ako sa nakababatang sarili ko. i always dream about change and talk with my friends about making a change but it ends there. i always talk about wanting to volunteer for some NGO but that remains unrealized up to now. i dont have the bravery that mikaela is talking about. i cant defy the pressure to lead a comfortable life. im not making new roads. im not a trailblazer. im just a part of the mob, the majority who walks through the clean, cemented path built before me.
maybe its maslow's hierarchy of needs working here. maybe not. maybe using maslow is just a good justification of my actions but the truth is im on my way to failing my younger, idealist self from its dreams. i dont know. maybe. i hope not.
i really want to go back to school now.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
kiddieland
second stop, ang destinasyon ng mga bata at mga pusong bata. ang lupain ng mga hayop na cute, prinsesa, prinsipe at kastilyo. yay!
mukha ba akong excited?
pati bintana ng tren, hugis tenga ng daga =)
goofing around..
mabuhay ang mga musikerong pilipino! manong, itayo ang bandila ng pilipinas! nakakatuwa palang marining ang "bahay kubo" habang tinutugtog sa bansang banyaga.
now, this is really freaky. how would you react if you hear merlin speaking in...uhm...cantonese?
its really weird man! pare, nakakabangag!
still goofing around =p
mukha ba akong excited?
pati bintana ng tren, hugis tenga ng daga =)
goofing around..
mabuhay ang mga musikerong pilipino! manong, itayo ang bandila ng pilipinas! nakakatuwa palang marining ang "bahay kubo" habang tinutugtog sa bansang banyaga.
now, this is really freaky. how would you react if you hear merlin speaking in...uhm...cantonese?
its really weird man! pare, nakakabangag!
still goofing around =p
Monday, April 09, 2007
on hiatus
grabe, nasa ika-labingtatlong araw na ko ng bakasyon at nasasanay na ko sa buhay na walang ginagawa! parang hindi na ako marunong mag-isip, magsulat at magtrabaho! hahaha sarap ng buhay!
biruin mo, inabutan na ko ng lunes sa pagpupuyat pero eto at wala pa kong balak matulog dahil wala pa ring pasok bukas. yahoo!
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isang taon na pala akong wala sa afp. bilis talaga ng panahon. buti na lang at minsan hindi ako logical mag-isip dahil kung hindi, siguro andun pa rin ako. buti na lang napikon ako at naibigay agad ang ginawa kong resignation letter dahil kung hindi....naku babatukan ko na sarili ko haha
pero ok lang din. madami akong natutunan at nakilalang bagong mga kaibigan. syempre kaakibat ng kalungkutan ang mga kasiyahan sa buhay. salamat afp...
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sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon, nakapagbyahe kami ng mga magulang at 2 kong kapatid sa labas ng bansa (too bad for you kuy haha). and what do you get when you have a hyper mom, a hot-tempered father and 2 cool sisters? a fun (mis)adventure! here are some of the pictures:
biruin mo, inabutan na ko ng lunes sa pagpupuyat pero eto at wala pa kong balak matulog dahil wala pa ring pasok bukas. yahoo!
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isang taon na pala akong wala sa afp. bilis talaga ng panahon. buti na lang at minsan hindi ako logical mag-isip dahil kung hindi, siguro andun pa rin ako. buti na lang napikon ako at naibigay agad ang ginawa kong resignation letter dahil kung hindi....naku babatukan ko na sarili ko haha
pero ok lang din. madami akong natutunan at nakilalang bagong mga kaibigan. syempre kaakibat ng kalungkutan ang mga kasiyahan sa buhay. salamat afp...
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sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon, nakapagbyahe kami ng mga magulang at 2 kong kapatid sa labas ng bansa (too bad for you kuy haha). and what do you get when you have a hyper mom, a hot-tempered father and 2 cool sisters? a fun (mis)adventure! here are some of the pictures:
eto sinasabi ko...(asan ako? photographer ang tawag sa akin)
uy grabe, nakangiti tatay ko. excited din haha
hindi ko rin alam kung bat may ipis eh. ay ndi pala sya ipis...
sa bibig ng pating
dikya ba ika mo? o eto..
opo mga kaibigan, lumabas ang karuwagan ko. duwag ako! sa tayog ng ferris wheel, sa sahig ako napaupo haha
tanawin mula sa cable car
Monday, January 29, 2007
lunes na naman
makalipas ang pitong buwan, muli na namang nabuo ang grupo namin nina sezy dezy at kimtot. kim had an interview somewhere in ayala so we decided to meet up for lunch. oh, i miss being with those two. sayang, kulang ang oras.
kim wants to quit her job. odezza wants to do the same. a year ago, i had the same thought.
kim has been doing the same job for more than 3 years. Odezza is doing the same thing for 10 months. I for 7 months.
kim says she wants to quit because ayaw na nya. odezza wants to quit because she doesnt want the commitment her job requires from her. i left my former job because i was so frustrated with so many things that time.
kim says she wants to quit even if she havent found a new job yet. odezza looked for a job first before she quit. i left my job with no assurance that i could find a replacement instantly.
i dont know why i am sharing this. it looks like an introduction of a more profound thought, right? but sorry to disappoint you, this entry is indeed pointless :p
i just wanted to write but i dont have the clarity of mind to even compose a nice entry. argh....
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its only monday but i feel like its the middle of the week already and its so weird that almost everyone at work felt the same. maybe we just had so much work today.
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life's little blessings. waking up in the morning. walang pila sa fx. light traffic. cool breeze. busy yet light atmosphere at work. having a good laugh. being with friends you rarely see. receiving your tax adjustment. reading an inspirational mail. upuan sa mrt. getting home safe. hay...life is good.
kim wants to quit her job. odezza wants to do the same. a year ago, i had the same thought.
kim has been doing the same job for more than 3 years. Odezza is doing the same thing for 10 months. I for 7 months.
kim says she wants to quit because ayaw na nya. odezza wants to quit because she doesnt want the commitment her job requires from her. i left my former job because i was so frustrated with so many things that time.
kim says she wants to quit even if she havent found a new job yet. odezza looked for a job first before she quit. i left my job with no assurance that i could find a replacement instantly.
i dont know why i am sharing this. it looks like an introduction of a more profound thought, right? but sorry to disappoint you, this entry is indeed pointless :p
i just wanted to write but i dont have the clarity of mind to even compose a nice entry. argh....
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its only monday but i feel like its the middle of the week already and its so weird that almost everyone at work felt the same. maybe we just had so much work today.
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life's little blessings. waking up in the morning. walang pila sa fx. light traffic. cool breeze. busy yet light atmosphere at work. having a good laugh. being with friends you rarely see. receiving your tax adjustment. reading an inspirational mail. upuan sa mrt. getting home safe. hay...life is good.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Home Alone on a Monday
For the nth time, im left alone in this tiny apartment. My sister is somewhere in Batangas for a retreat so i had to endure two nights of sleeping alone. Random thoughts run through my mind and here's a peek:
- Naiiinis ako sa bagong telenobela nina Kim and Gerald (or Gerard?) because it will (a) make me stay up late just to catch Maging Sino Ka Man or (b) make me loose my patience and go to bed right after ive had my dinner. I mean, tama na ang Deal or no Deal at Super Inggo na pampatay ng oras habang naghihintay kina Bea at John Lloyd. One hour of mediocrity is enough for me to have dinner and wash the dishes so having another 30 minutes of nonsense (not that Maging Sino ka man is full of sense :P) is just so....argh. Frustrating.
- I had a full day and i LOVE it! Namimiss ko na kasi ang mga madugong araw sa J5 kung saan puro rush ang trabaho. So having a super duper busy day after days of idleness is a welcome thing. Its actually a good way of starting the year.
- Little blessings in life. Nice sleep. Waking up in the morning. Buying a pair of shoes without knowing that it is on sale. Free sumptous snack because of a coworker celebrating her birthday. Being told that you look good. Catching a feel good movie. Light traffic on your way to work. Free chocolates. Mail from friends. Good music. Aaahh...life is good.
- Naiiinis ako sa bagong telenobela nina Kim and Gerald (or Gerard?) because it will (a) make me stay up late just to catch Maging Sino Ka Man or (b) make me loose my patience and go to bed right after ive had my dinner. I mean, tama na ang Deal or no Deal at Super Inggo na pampatay ng oras habang naghihintay kina Bea at John Lloyd. One hour of mediocrity is enough for me to have dinner and wash the dishes so having another 30 minutes of nonsense (not that Maging Sino ka man is full of sense :P) is just so....argh. Frustrating.
- I had a full day and i LOVE it! Namimiss ko na kasi ang mga madugong araw sa J5 kung saan puro rush ang trabaho. So having a super duper busy day after days of idleness is a welcome thing. Its actually a good way of starting the year.
- Little blessings in life. Nice sleep. Waking up in the morning. Buying a pair of shoes without knowing that it is on sale. Free sumptous snack because of a coworker celebrating her birthday. Being told that you look good. Catching a feel good movie. Light traffic on your way to work. Free chocolates. Mail from friends. Good music. Aaahh...life is good.
Monday, January 08, 2007
foto.larawan
mga larawang matagal naghintay ng pagkakataong maipakita sa blog na ito at ngayon ay nabigyan ng pagkakataon.
pagkakaibigang hindi nagtapos sa unibersidad at nagpatuloy sa trabaho.
pagkakaibigang nagkaroon ng bahagyang pagbabago.
tara na, byahe tayo....
aaahhh...kape tayo
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Happy New Year!
A survey to start the year...
What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Go out of the country!
Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I cant remember them.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Ate Raquel
Did anyone close to you die?
No.
What countries did you visit?
Thailand! Ill never forget that place. Lots of interesting and shocking stuff.
What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Direction. Hefty sum of money in my bank account (grin)
What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
A lot.
February 7, when my sister left for Saipan;
March 25 when I gave my resignation letter to my former boss and we had a short but emotional talk wherein I almost cried. Hay, im such a cry baby.
March 27, when I went back to my old school, shared the little things I know about learning in grade school and learning for life and seeing young hopeful faces actually listening to what I was saying and my teachers smiling.
June 1, first day of (new) work.
November 25 when my sister came home for vacation and I spoiled her moment because we were 2 hours late.
December 25 because its going to be the first, among the many Christmases that we will be having without my sister in the country. We’ve celebrated Christmas away from each other but its really different this year.
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting out of my comfort zone.
What was your biggest failure?
Not keeping my promise to myself to start saving.
Did you suffer serious illness or injury?
Nope. Hopefully not in 2007 and 2008 and 2009 and so on.
What was the best thing you bought?
That P280 pants from Divisoria.
Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mommy and Mimi.
Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Not counting the politicians and the regents who voted for the tuition hike in UP? Ang mga lalaki sa buhay ko, ang tatay at kuya ko.
Where did most of your money go?
Food I guess…
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Gala’ out of the country!
What song(s) will always remind you of 2006?
In my life
Nobela
Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder - happier
ii. Thinner or fatter - thinner
iii. Richer or poorer – poorer
What do you wish you'd done more?
Read books…and write.
What do you wish you'd done less of?
Working.
How many one-night stands?
Nein. None. Wala.
What was your favorite TV program?
Amazing Race! Wanted to join that one.
Grey’s Anatomy.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope. I don’t want to hate people.
What was the best book you read in 2006?
Oh no, this is not right, I only read one book in 2006. And it is not even a real book! Pathetic. The answer is none.
What was your greatest musical discovery?
None.
What did you want and get?
A new job; changes from my monotonous life
What was your favorite film of this year?
Happy Feet!
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Oh I prepared Rigatoni with Bolognese sauce which came out looking funny but tasted good. JI turned 25.
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Hmmm…boylet? (evilgrin)
A volunteer job.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
Oh I lost my estudyante get up and made a lot of effort to look more corporate because of my new job. I still couldn’t get used to it L.
What kept you sane?
My sister.
Regular movie dates with my officemates..
Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I got hooked on Chad Peralta but it is slowly wearing off.
What political issue stirred you the most?
Coup d’etat
Who did you miss?
Ate.
Sezy Dezy and Kimtot
J5 friends.
Who was the best new person you met?
Cant pick one. I met a lot of good people this year.
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
Don’t wait to let things happen, make them happen. Live your life now.
What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself?
That Im a nice person.
The most touching experience you've had this year?
Got a big hug from my cousin’s son. He is 13 and he couldn’t walk by himself. He couldn’t talk and only communicates through grunts. Im not sure if he remembers other people’s faces. I think I only saw him thrice. He came during my uncle’s wake carried like a 4-year old kid. And when I came to kiss him, he hugged me real tight and I felt like that was one of the most sincere hugs I’ve ever got.
What did you like most about yourself this year?
I became more sociable.
What did you hate most about yourself this year?
I worry too much about being an adult instead of just living it lightly.
Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
You gotta be cool
You gotta be wise
You gotta be stronger!
Was 2006 a good year for you?
Yes but challenging.
What was your favorite moment of the year?
January 25.
What was your least favorite moment of the year?
February 7 and December 9. Hay, I hate goodbyes.
Where were you when 2006 began?
Nasa kalsada at nanonood ng mga nagpapaputok.
Who were you with?
Mommy, Daddy, Ate, Mimi and Manang Ateng
Where will you be when 2006 ends?
I don’t know. Let’s see where life will bring me.
Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
My family.
Do you have a new year’s resolution for 2007?
Yes.
Save more.
Go back to school.
Read more.
Give to charity.
Eat healthy.
What was your favorite month of 2006?
January.
Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006?
Nope.
Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yes. My sister.
What was your favorite record from 2006?
Kami nAPO muna..
How many concerts did you see in 2006?
None, not even one of the UP fair concerts.
Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2006?
Barely. I only had small doses of alcohol in January, Mae’s birthday, and twice in December.
Do a lot of drugs in 2006?
Never although we wanted to try Marijuana haha
You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Don’t think so.
How much money did you spend in 2006?
I don’t keep a record of my finances.
What was your proudest moment of 2006?
march 2006.
What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
Couldn’t remember. Wala yata.
If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
December 29, 2006. Sana hindi na lang ako nagparelax. Putik, nasira buhok ko!
What are your plans for 2007?
Go back to school.
How are you different now that the year has ended?
I think I matured a lot and ironically, i realized that im childish in many ways.
What are your wishes for the new year?
That its gonna be a happy year and that changes do not come as often as they did in 2006. But if they still do, I wish that I still have the strength to face them without worrying too much.
What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Go out of the country!
Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I cant remember them.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Ate Raquel
Did anyone close to you die?
No.
What countries did you visit?
Thailand! Ill never forget that place. Lots of interesting and shocking stuff.
What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Direction. Hefty sum of money in my bank account (grin)
What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
A lot.
February 7, when my sister left for Saipan;
March 25 when I gave my resignation letter to my former boss and we had a short but emotional talk wherein I almost cried. Hay, im such a cry baby.
March 27, when I went back to my old school, shared the little things I know about learning in grade school and learning for life and seeing young hopeful faces actually listening to what I was saying and my teachers smiling.
June 1, first day of (new) work.
November 25 when my sister came home for vacation and I spoiled her moment because we were 2 hours late.
December 25 because its going to be the first, among the many Christmases that we will be having without my sister in the country. We’ve celebrated Christmas away from each other but its really different this year.
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting out of my comfort zone.
What was your biggest failure?
Not keeping my promise to myself to start saving.
Did you suffer serious illness or injury?
Nope. Hopefully not in 2007 and 2008 and 2009 and so on.
What was the best thing you bought?
That P280 pants from Divisoria.
Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mommy and Mimi.
Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Not counting the politicians and the regents who voted for the tuition hike in UP? Ang mga lalaki sa buhay ko, ang tatay at kuya ko.
Where did most of your money go?
Food I guess…
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Gala’ out of the country!
What song(s) will always remind you of 2006?
In my life
Nobela
Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder - happier
ii. Thinner or fatter - thinner
iii. Richer or poorer – poorer
What do you wish you'd done more?
Read books…and write.
What do you wish you'd done less of?
Working.
How many one-night stands?
Nein. None. Wala.
What was your favorite TV program?
Amazing Race! Wanted to join that one.
Grey’s Anatomy.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope. I don’t want to hate people.
What was the best book you read in 2006?
Oh no, this is not right, I only read one book in 2006. And it is not even a real book! Pathetic. The answer is none.
What was your greatest musical discovery?
None.
What did you want and get?
A new job; changes from my monotonous life
What was your favorite film of this year?
Happy Feet!
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Oh I prepared Rigatoni with Bolognese sauce which came out looking funny but tasted good. JI turned 25.
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Hmmm…boylet? (evilgrin)
A volunteer job.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
Oh I lost my estudyante get up and made a lot of effort to look more corporate because of my new job. I still couldn’t get used to it L.
What kept you sane?
My sister.
Regular movie dates with my officemates..
Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I got hooked on Chad Peralta but it is slowly wearing off.
What political issue stirred you the most?
Coup d’etat
Who did you miss?
Ate.
Sezy Dezy and Kimtot
J5 friends.
Who was the best new person you met?
Cant pick one. I met a lot of good people this year.
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
Don’t wait to let things happen, make them happen. Live your life now.
What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself?
That Im a nice person.
The most touching experience you've had this year?
Got a big hug from my cousin’s son. He is 13 and he couldn’t walk by himself. He couldn’t talk and only communicates through grunts. Im not sure if he remembers other people’s faces. I think I only saw him thrice. He came during my uncle’s wake carried like a 4-year old kid. And when I came to kiss him, he hugged me real tight and I felt like that was one of the most sincere hugs I’ve ever got.
What did you like most about yourself this year?
I became more sociable.
What did you hate most about yourself this year?
I worry too much about being an adult instead of just living it lightly.
Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
You gotta be cool
You gotta be wise
You gotta be stronger!
Was 2006 a good year for you?
Yes but challenging.
What was your favorite moment of the year?
January 25.
What was your least favorite moment of the year?
February 7 and December 9. Hay, I hate goodbyes.
Where were you when 2006 began?
Nasa kalsada at nanonood ng mga nagpapaputok.
Who were you with?
Mommy, Daddy, Ate, Mimi and Manang Ateng
Where will you be when 2006 ends?
I don’t know. Let’s see where life will bring me.
Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
My family.
Do you have a new year’s resolution for 2007?
Yes.
Save more.
Go back to school.
Read more.
Give to charity.
Eat healthy.
What was your favorite month of 2006?
January.
Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006?
Nope.
Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yes. My sister.
What was your favorite record from 2006?
Kami nAPO muna..
How many concerts did you see in 2006?
None, not even one of the UP fair concerts.
Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2006?
Barely. I only had small doses of alcohol in January, Mae’s birthday, and twice in December.
Do a lot of drugs in 2006?
Never although we wanted to try Marijuana haha
You do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Don’t think so.
How much money did you spend in 2006?
I don’t keep a record of my finances.
What was your proudest moment of 2006?
march 2006.
What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
Couldn’t remember. Wala yata.
If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
December 29, 2006. Sana hindi na lang ako nagparelax. Putik, nasira buhok ko!
What are your plans for 2007?
Go back to school.
How are you different now that the year has ended?
I think I matured a lot and ironically, i realized that im childish in many ways.
What are your wishes for the new year?
That its gonna be a happy year and that changes do not come as often as they did in 2006. But if they still do, I wish that I still have the strength to face them without worrying too much.
Friday, November 03, 2006
FX Scene
Its 815 in the morning. Cubao-based Makati-bound people queue patiently for their oh-so-longed-for ride. When the FX entered the parking lot, the first 10 who were in line scrambled like ants welcoming the god-like manong driver who can save them from the misery of tardiness. They found their way in, and settled for the 30 to 45-minute ride to Makati. Some brought out their MP3s and marked their personal boundaries with their earpieces, others silently prayed with their rosaries, others plunged into the abyss of their own dreams, and others, like me, silently observed them. It’s an amusing scene indeed, watching these corporate beings, donned with powersuits, resisting the urge to drool and fall into deep slumber. They immitate the actions of stuffed toy dogs found in cars, constantly nodding while keeping their balance. Some get back to their senses with a sudden jolt caused by a hole on the road, others by the sound of their phones, while others just couldn’t be disturbed by anything.
And then I heard a song from the radio, and I had a duet with Peabo Bryson, but of course in silence. I was singing in my mind and looking blankly at the person in front of me, without any intention of infecting him with the melodious tone of the song. Suddenly, he woke up, raised his head, and sang in a gentle tone “we had a once in a lifetime, but I just couldn’t see, until it was gone… if ever you’re in my arms again, this time ill hold you much better, this time we’ll never end.” He looked at my direction, and in surprise, I looked away.
And then I heard a song from the radio, and I had a duet with Peabo Bryson, but of course in silence. I was singing in my mind and looking blankly at the person in front of me, without any intention of infecting him with the melodious tone of the song. Suddenly, he woke up, raised his head, and sang in a gentle tone “we had a once in a lifetime, but I just couldn’t see, until it was gone… if ever you’re in my arms again, this time ill hold you much better, this time we’ll never end.” He looked at my direction, and in surprise, I looked away.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Sur(reality)
This is the second morning that I woke up with a weird feeling. Like everything is so unreal. I didn’t expect that something like this would happen. I never dreamt of talking about this with someone so close to me. So this is growing up?
I’ve cried about this. We’ve cried about this. We talked about this, yet, I still feel weird.
This is not the first time that I’ve dealt with this kind of story. But its different now because I’m so affected by it. I was not able to sleep the first time I heard it. I was thinking about it all night long, yet answers do not clearly come to my mind. I was trying to think straight knowing that this was the right thing to do. Yet, the understanding and acceptance also engulf me, and sometimes, overrides the rational mind I’ve been trying to empower.
Aaahh…life. Maybe I just have to deal with it. One part of me says I want to but the other says I don’t ...
I’ve cried about this. We’ve cried about this. We talked about this, yet, I still feel weird.
This is not the first time that I’ve dealt with this kind of story. But its different now because I’m so affected by it. I was not able to sleep the first time I heard it. I was thinking about it all night long, yet answers do not clearly come to my mind. I was trying to think straight knowing that this was the right thing to do. Yet, the understanding and acceptance also engulf me, and sometimes, overrides the rational mind I’ve been trying to empower.
Aaahh…life. Maybe I just have to deal with it. One part of me says I want to but the other says I don’t ...
Big Bang
Pagkatapos ng mahaba-habang paglalakbay…nope! After 100 years of solitary confinement in the recesses of my blog-less world, im back to say hi to this blog. Im sorry if I have abandoned you for the past nine months. Many things have changed since February. Yeah, you must be thinking that the more I should have written, but ironically, I could not write. I think im just too overwhelmed with various emotions that I find it too hard to conjure which words exactly define how I feel and what I think. Now I’m writing, not because I’m so ok but because I’m too shocked. Ok, maybe I’m exaggerating, or maybe I’m not.
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I can feel it now. The emotional stress is slowly seeping though my veins. This is what ive been waiting to happen. The feeling of becoming, the feeling of reality.
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I can feel it now. The emotional stress is slowly seeping though my veins. This is what ive been waiting to happen. The feeling of becoming, the feeling of reality.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
before sunrise
for those who fell in love with jesse and celine back in 94...
Daydream Illusion
Limousine eyelash
Oh baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look into those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweetcakes and milkshakes
Im a delusion angel
Im a fantasy parade
I want you to know what i think
I dont want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where i came from
No idea where we're going
Launched in life
Like branches in the river, flowing downstream
Getting caught in the current
I carry you
You carry me
Thats how it should be
Dont you know me
Dont you know me by now
ito ay bunga ng matiyagang pagtranscribe habang pinapanood ko ng pang-hindi-ko-na-mabilang na beses ang before sunrise. salamat sa aking fellow before sunrise addict na si dezas para sa mga corrections.
Daydream Illusion
Limousine eyelash
Oh baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look into those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweetcakes and milkshakes
Im a delusion angel
Im a fantasy parade
I want you to know what i think
I dont want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where i came from
No idea where we're going
Launched in life
Like branches in the river, flowing downstream
Getting caught in the current
I carry you
You carry me
Thats how it should be
Dont you know me
Dont you know me by now
ito ay bunga ng matiyagang pagtranscribe habang pinapanood ko ng pang-hindi-ko-na-mabilang na beses ang before sunrise. salamat sa aking fellow before sunrise addict na si dezas para sa mga corrections.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
pasq 2005
pagkatapos ng mahaba-habang paghihintay ng masasakyang taksi, papuntang diliman, nakarating din kami nina dez, ava at vhang sa up upang makiisa sa buong sangkaupihan sa taunang pagdiriwang ng lantern parade.kakaiba ang lantern parade ngayong taon. madaming booths sa buong acad oval. may booth ang bawat college kung san nandun yung lantern nila, meron ding booth para sa pagkain, at meron din namang mga tiangge. yun nga lang, masyadong malaki ang oval kaya nagmukhang kulang at magkakalayo ang mga booth, at nagmukhang konti ang up population para tumao sa mga booth.
ang saya ng parade kahit mejo masakit sa paa at sa batok dahil sa kakahanap ng magandang posisyon. favorite ko ang parol ng wind mula sa college of fine arts. yan yun, yung nasa lower right. pero mas masaya ang fireworks display! yun nga lang, masakit din sa batok tsaka mabaho pagkatapos.
at nung gabing yun, parang lahat positive. ang saya ng mood, ang ganda ng fireworks, ang ganda ng buwan at first time kong ma-appreciate ang carillion. (tama ba spelling?). para itong isang malaking pigurin na nag-eemit ng light. at ang buwan, ang ganda ng pagkakaposisyon sa gitna ng mga ulap. parang tagpo sa isang painting.
ang saya ng pasko...lalo na kung madami kang pulburang naamoy, pakiramdam mo ang saya ng mundo. sana araw araw pasko.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
going down memory lane
agreeing to see ultraelectromagnetic jam was one of the best decisions ive made in my life. weeks before the concert, i was still hesitant to say yes because of some things at work but what the heck, i said yes ayway. and im glad i did.
im an eraserheads fan since i was in high school. when my classmates were going crazy over nick carter and the backstreet boys, i was drooling for ely buendia and the eraserheads. when they announced on NU that they were disbanding, i was one of those who got sad and really disappointed. when zach and joey were interviewing raymund and buddy, waaa gusto ko talagang umiyak!
im not an artist and i might not know music from its technical side but i say that the music of eraserheads is really good. eraserheads was one of the few local bands i have respect for because they proved that they were really musicians and not just a bunch of angry, repressed youths who just wanted to have some attention from the public or some band who think that shouting peace and producing eardrum-splitting sound would make them real rockers and artists. you could see the evolution of their music and the focus of their songs. their songs changed from mundane concerns of the youth (love interests, friendships, being "high" hehe, etc) into more mature and profound issues. its just too bad i think that many of the fans did not cope with the progression of their songs until they reached the point when many were already losing grasp of them and when people could not relate anymore with what they were saying (singing).
buti na lang, may ultraelectromagnetic jam! ngunit sayang, bawal ang camera. my friend's camera was confiscated so i did not take the risk to take pictures during the concert. 
i took this photo of the stage after the performance na.
the concert was good although some of the performers were not (evil grin). south border's version of my favorite 'with a smile' was too pop, even orange and lemons'.
i went wild with the crowd when i saw ely and the other guys in the monitor, talking about being eraserheads. you could see that the crowd still has that respect (or idolatry) when they gave marcus adoro that standing ovation when he played base for paolo santos. i thought they will have that sort of "rendezvous" and play one more time, together, for the crowd but, i was wrong. i hope they'd do that, at least before they die (hehe ugly).
anyhow, the entire experience was great, even if the ending came so sudden na parang bitin yung dating ng concert. it was nice to relive those glory days when eheads was still reigning over all the stations. mabuti na lang at nakasama ako sa isang henerasyong napasaya ng eraserheads. i really hope the four of them could play wonderful music once again.
Friday, November 18, 2005
a night of total magic and --- evat
i went to see harry potter last night! yeah, harry potter himself, not the movie (well, in my dreams). i was so excited that i even had this picture taken. i felt like a kid about to see her favorite cartoon movie. haha (please dont throw stones or popcorns at me).
everybody seemed to have a single destination that night. parang lahat ng tao sa gateway paakyat sa 4th floor. And the queue for the tickets was really long that night. its a good thing that we bought our tickets a week before. saved us the stress of having to wait for minutes just to get good seats.
i was so giddy that night. i was hoping that the movie would turn out great because there were some apprehensions at the back of my mind that it would just be...mediocre.
the movie was made for kinds and not really for the book aficionados. it really focused on the triwizard cup and neglected some of the details that may have had big impact on the overall story. it is a good movie i think for people who did not read the book but a bit short and incomplete for people who know the book. one major spoiler i think was the lack of a portion showing the quidditch finals between scotland (or ireland) and bulgaria, where scotland (or ireland) won but krum got the snitch. isa pa namn yun sa inaabangan ko.
nevertheless, natuwa namn ako sa movie. the great effects made up for the lapses. i love the festive mood during the quidditch world cup. kaya lang hindi pinakita yung ibang mascots, especially the veelas whom i wanted to see.
my other favorite scene in the film was the arrival of the durmstrang and beauxbaton students (although the description was a bit different from the book). and krum was so damn goodlooking! he was not supposed to look that way... and, he got to deliver 2 lines, one was when he talked to rita skeeter and the other was when he said goodbye to hermione, with the matching good bye wave. haha funny
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after the movie, we headed straight to the food court to have our dose of carbohydrates and fats. at aba, nakakagulat na ang presyo ng mga pagkain sa fastfood. side salad is still 20 bucks but chili rice already costs 25, plus 10% tax. at ang bacon mushroom melt ay 100 pesos na. grabe...
krismasi mood
i saw this small cute christmas landscape display in gateway last tuesday which gave me that bittersweet feeling about christmas. excited and happy with a bit of nostalgia...hay
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