FX Scene

Its 815 in the morning. Cubao-based Makati-bound people queue patiently for their oh-so-longed-for ride. When the FX entered the parking lot, the first 10 who were in line scrambled like ants welcoming the god-like manong driver who can save them from the misery of tardiness. They found their way in, and settled for the 30 to 45-minute ride to Makati. Some brought out their MP3s and marked their personal boundaries with their earpieces, others silently prayed with their rosaries, others plunged into the abyss of their own dreams, and others, like me, silently observed them. It’s an amusing scene indeed, watching these corporate beings, donned with powersuits, resisting the urge to drool and fall into deep slumber. They immitate the actions of stuffed toy dogs found in cars, constantly nodding while keeping their balance. Some get back to their senses with a sudden jolt caused by a hole on the road, others by the sound of their phones, while others just couldn’t be disturbed by anything.

And then I heard a song from the radio, and I had a duet with Peabo Bryson, but of course in silence. I was singing in my mind and looking blankly at the person in front of me, without any intention of infecting him with the melodious tone of the song. Suddenly, he woke up, raised his head, and sang in a gentle tone “we had a once in a lifetime, but I just couldn’t see, until it was gone… if ever you’re in my arms again, this time ill hold you much better, this time we’ll never end.” He looked at my direction, and in surprise, I looked away.

Sur(reality)

This is the second morning that I woke up with a weird feeling. Like everything is so unreal. I didn’t expect that something like this would happen. I never dreamt of talking about this with someone so close to me. So this is growing up?

I’ve cried about this. We’ve cried about this. We talked about this, yet, I still feel weird.

This is not the first time that I’ve dealt with this kind of story. But its different now because I’m so affected by it. I was not able to sleep the first time I heard it. I was thinking about it all night long, yet answers do not clearly come to my mind. I was trying to think straight knowing that this was the right thing to do. Yet, the understanding and acceptance also engulf me, and sometimes, overrides the rational mind I’ve been trying to empower.

Aaahh…life. Maybe I just have to deal with it. One part of me says I want to but the other says I don’t ...

Big Bang

Pagkatapos ng mahaba-habang paglalakbay…nope! After 100 years of solitary confinement in the recesses of my blog-less world, im back to say hi to this blog. Im sorry if I have abandoned you for the past nine months. Many things have changed since February. Yeah, you must be thinking that the more I should have written, but ironically, I could not write. I think im just too overwhelmed with various emotions that I find it too hard to conjure which words exactly define how I feel and what I think. Now I’m writing, not because I’m so ok but because I’m too shocked. Ok, maybe I’m exaggerating, or maybe I’m not.

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I can feel it now. The emotional stress is slowly seeping though my veins. This is what ive been waiting to happen. The feeling of becoming, the feeling of reality.

before sunrise

for those who fell in love with jesse and celine back in 94...

Daydream Illusion

Limousine eyelash
Oh baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look into those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweetcakes and milkshakes

Im a delusion angel
Im a fantasy parade
I want you to know what i think
I dont want you to guess anymore

You have no idea where i came from
No idea where we're going

Launched in life
Like branches in the river, flowing downstream
Getting caught in the current

I carry you
You carry me
Thats how it should be
Dont you know me
Dont you know me by now

ito ay bunga ng matiyagang pagtranscribe habang pinapanood ko ng pang-hindi-ko-na-mabilang na beses ang before sunrise. salamat sa aking fellow before sunrise addict na si dezas para sa mga corrections.