i got this from ala paredes. google-ing one's name =)
and no, its not about narcissism, its more of plain curiosity. its just a matter of wanting to know if i exist in the world wide web.
and so i typed in, lxxx xxxx pxxxxxxx. result: 2 hits haha sige na nga. courtesy of j5 days pa yan ha.
fast forward to 2007. sa kabilang bahagi ng mundo, may tao din palang gumagawa nito.
he types in: pasaraba. his motivation? he wants to connect to his relatives in the far east.
you see, our surname is a unique one. kokonti lang ang may ganitong apelyido sa buong mundo. kaya kung sinuman ang lumabas sa net na kaapelyido ko, malamang iisa ang pinanggalingan namin.
thats why my family was really thrilled when we got a mail from my cousin whom ive never seen since birth. the family moved to the states when they were still kids. the parents come home once in a while but they (the kids) never had the chance to come back and visit.
eerr..there was one time pala when he almost met my older siblings. his ship docked in subic but too bad, they didnt get the schedule right. so sorry na lang.
i worked in the armed forces for 3 years. yearly, we participate in bilateral wargaming exercises with US troops. pero sorry pa rin, hindi kami nagkita.
buti na lang may friendster, na sa tingin ko ay parang NSO sa lawak ng database. lahat yata ng tao may record dito.
anyway, im really happy for the gift of the internet and friendster. brings long lost relatives together.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Saturday, May 26, 2007
syet celeb!
before, it was theater
now, its blogging
haha my sister is making waves. she was featured blogger of the week in inquirer. wala lang, not really a big deal but she is my sister so its a big deal for me haha
read more here
now, its blogging
haha my sister is making waves. she was featured blogger of the week in inquirer. wala lang, not really a big deal but she is my sister so its a big deal for me haha
read more here
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
changes
Evolution is an imperfect and often violent process.
A battle between what exists and what is yet to become.
Amidst all these, morality loses its meaning
The question between what is good and evil becomes one simple choice, survive or perish
----- HEROES
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wala lang. feel ko lang baguhin template ko. Nawala tuloy ang mga links ko =(
A battle between what exists and what is yet to become.
Amidst all these, morality loses its meaning
The question between what is good and evil becomes one simple choice, survive or perish
----- HEROES
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wala lang. feel ko lang baguhin template ko. Nawala tuloy ang mga links ko =(
Monday, May 14, 2007
boredom
boring din pala pag walang ginagawa. =)
this is my realization after having 2 whole days of well...idle time.
i used to love these moments. but now, man, its tiring! nakakapagod matulog! nakakabore kumain ng kumain! nakakabobo manood ng tv maghapon! (syempre pagkatapos bumoto)nababato na ako!
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excited na ako sa pagdating ng martes. im looking forward to having my nose and ears bleed. at least, even for just a week, my dream of getting a feel of how it is to be an atenean will be realized. syet, ang babaw ko! haha hmmm....tingnan nga natin.
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yey! estudyante na ulit ako! im going back to up this june. this time, seryosohang pag-aaral na ito. sayang naman ang tuition pag bumagsak or nag-drop ako. oble, namiss kita! namiss ko ang kasimplehan ng buhay up. namiss ko ang kayabangan ng mga tao dun. pero ang pinaka-namiss ko, ang pag-iisip ng mga taong nangangarap baguhin ang mundo.
after the exam, of course, i prayed that id be accepted. sayang naman ang 300 kung hindi ako pumasa no. at syempre, nakakahiya din haha
i was asking myself why i would still want to go back to up. bakit ko gugustuhing bumalik sa unibersidad na may bulok na facilities? pwede naman akong maglasalle lalo na at P100 lang naman ang pagitan ng tuition per unit. pwede din naman akong mag-ateneo kung magtitipid lang ako. (thinks: pwede din kaya akong mag-aral abroad?)
aside from the yabang reasons, i realized that what i like most about up is the kind of thinking it instills in its students. kaya ang rason ko kung bakit gusto kong bumalik sa up? gusto kong magrecharge! gusto kong ibalik ang idealism na unti unti nang nawawala sa akin! sure this may not help me climb the corporate ladder fast but this is the thing that will drive me to do better. so sana, marecharge ako =)
this is my realization after having 2 whole days of well...idle time.
i used to love these moments. but now, man, its tiring! nakakapagod matulog! nakakabore kumain ng kumain! nakakabobo manood ng tv maghapon! (syempre pagkatapos bumoto)nababato na ako!
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excited na ako sa pagdating ng martes. im looking forward to having my nose and ears bleed. at least, even for just a week, my dream of getting a feel of how it is to be an atenean will be realized. syet, ang babaw ko! haha hmmm....tingnan nga natin.
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yey! estudyante na ulit ako! im going back to up this june. this time, seryosohang pag-aaral na ito. sayang naman ang tuition pag bumagsak or nag-drop ako. oble, namiss kita! namiss ko ang kasimplehan ng buhay up. namiss ko ang kayabangan ng mga tao dun. pero ang pinaka-namiss ko, ang pag-iisip ng mga taong nangangarap baguhin ang mundo.
after the exam, of course, i prayed that id be accepted. sayang naman ang 300 kung hindi ako pumasa no. at syempre, nakakahiya din haha
i was asking myself why i would still want to go back to up. bakit ko gugustuhing bumalik sa unibersidad na may bulok na facilities? pwede naman akong maglasalle lalo na at P100 lang naman ang pagitan ng tuition per unit. pwede din naman akong mag-ateneo kung magtitipid lang ako. (thinks: pwede din kaya akong mag-aral abroad?)
aside from the yabang reasons, i realized that what i like most about up is the kind of thinking it instills in its students. kaya ang rason ko kung bakit gusto kong bumalik sa up? gusto kong magrecharge! gusto kong ibalik ang idealism na unti unti nang nawawala sa akin! sure this may not help me climb the corporate ladder fast but this is the thing that will drive me to do better. so sana, marecharge ako =)
Saturday, May 12, 2007
sabado
1130 ng umaga.
nakaupo ako loob ng cubicle. nakatingin sa pc. kakatapos naming pag-usapan ang plano kung paano isasakatuparan ang pagrerevise sa isang manual. nagawa ko na din ang report ko. hmm...ano pa ba kaylangan kong gawin?
makapagbasa nga muna ng news.
http://www.inquirer.net. ay boring ang news.
ah, magbabasa na lang ako ng matinong article!
http://www.haringliwanag.pansitan.net
opening site....
smartfilter.
the site you requested is blocked.
please contact your system administrator for site review.
HUWAT! putik, natunugan na ng ISD ang aking libangan! hay, pano na ang periodic dose of wisdom ko? huhuhu
Kainis! Blocked na sa ofis ang blog ni jim paredes. sad face...
nakaupo ako loob ng cubicle. nakatingin sa pc. kakatapos naming pag-usapan ang plano kung paano isasakatuparan ang pagrerevise sa isang manual. nagawa ko na din ang report ko. hmm...ano pa ba kaylangan kong gawin?
makapagbasa nga muna ng news.
http://www.inquirer.net. ay boring ang news.
ah, magbabasa na lang ako ng matinong article!
http://www.haringliwanag.pansitan.net
opening site....
smartfilter.
the site you requested is blocked.
please contact your system administrator for site review.
HUWAT! putik, natunugan na ng ISD ang aking libangan! hay, pano na ang periodic dose of wisdom ko? huhuhu
Kainis! Blocked na sa ofis ang blog ni jim paredes. sad face...
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
maligayang araw ng paggawa
alas-tres na ng madaling araw pero gising na gising pa rin ako. bakit hindi? walang pasok bukas dahil araw ng pagdiriwang ng mga manggagawa sa buong mundo.
pagkatapos ng 4 na taon ng pagtatrabaho, ano ang dapat kong ipagdiwang?
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dahil ipit ang lunes sa dalawang araw na walang pasok, halos walang tao kanina sa opisina. tahimik! masaya haha minsan lang kasi maging tahimik sa opisina. madalas maingay! ewan ko ba, ang lalakas ng boses ng mga tao dun. malalaman mo kung ano ang pinag-uusapan nila ng nasa kabilang linya ng telepono. feeling mo tuloy nakikipakinig ka kahit hindi naman. tsismosa!
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ina and i were talking about mikaela fudolig's speech this afternoon. she responded to the forwarded email i sent to the group, with a note that reads: i guess the idea is not just for UP people but for every Filipino youth.
she said she had goosebumps while reading the speech. well, who wont? as usual, we had one of those (pa)profound discussions about idealism, adulthood and life. i dont know why but whenever we chat, we usually end up discussing about serious things in life.
told her that i loved the speech because its so young and so idealist. i remember that i once read an article written by a parent who has a kid who graduated from ateneo. she (or he, i couldnt remember if it was a father or a mother) noticed how the valedictory speech seemed like a rhetoric. she was a bit disappointed because she didnt see the youthful idealism that she expected to see from a person who is fresh from school and who is supposed to have fresh perspectives about the world. and she was asking, was an expensive atenean education worth it? i dont mean any offense because i know that there are a lot of idealist ateneans out there, who might be more idealist than me, but that article just came back to my mind while reading mikaela's speech. maybe if the mother could read mikaela's article now, she wont lose hope in the youth.
anyway, ina and i were talking about how idealism, in a way, gradually wears off during adulthood (at least in our experience). when youre fresh from college, you have these dreams about making a change, about holding on to the values you learned from college, about living a principled life, about defying the norm in the interest of truth, about serving your country, serving the people who sent you through school, about giving back to society. but as you work and live in a dynamic environment wherein people's minds are not as easy to understand and couldnt be explained by a single theory, you learn about a new concept, that of compromise. as you meddle with people who 'have been there', you learn that somehow, you need to reorient yourself in order to survive, that somehow, you have to sometimes 'relax' your personal rules a bit and you'll have new sets of principles. and as you immerse yourself longer, you slowly realize that the idealism is waning, that youre becoming more pragmatic. not that its a bad thing but sometimes, the guilt is there.
she was telling me that this kind of idealism is peculiar of up. that in la salle, people were more self-absorbed. that social consciousness is not a norm. i couldnt react because i dont have any friends from la salle aside from her and cams. and she said she also does not have friends from up aside from jen, dangs and me. and so we appreciate the interaction, the exchange of thoughts, the sharing of perspectives.
sometimes i feel shame for myself. nahihiya ako sa nakababatang sarili ko. i always dream about change and talk with my friends about making a change but it ends there. i always talk about wanting to volunteer for some NGO but that remains unrealized up to now. i dont have the bravery that mikaela is talking about. i cant defy the pressure to lead a comfortable life. im not making new roads. im not a trailblazer. im just a part of the mob, the majority who walks through the clean, cemented path built before me.
maybe its maslow's hierarchy of needs working here. maybe not. maybe using maslow is just a good justification of my actions but the truth is im on my way to failing my younger, idealist self from its dreams. i dont know. maybe. i hope not.
i really want to go back to school now.
pagkatapos ng 4 na taon ng pagtatrabaho, ano ang dapat kong ipagdiwang?
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dahil ipit ang lunes sa dalawang araw na walang pasok, halos walang tao kanina sa opisina. tahimik! masaya haha minsan lang kasi maging tahimik sa opisina. madalas maingay! ewan ko ba, ang lalakas ng boses ng mga tao dun. malalaman mo kung ano ang pinag-uusapan nila ng nasa kabilang linya ng telepono. feeling mo tuloy nakikipakinig ka kahit hindi naman. tsismosa!
------------
ina and i were talking about mikaela fudolig's speech this afternoon. she responded to the forwarded email i sent to the group, with a note that reads: i guess the idea is not just for UP people but for every Filipino youth.
she said she had goosebumps while reading the speech. well, who wont? as usual, we had one of those (pa)profound discussions about idealism, adulthood and life. i dont know why but whenever we chat, we usually end up discussing about serious things in life.
told her that i loved the speech because its so young and so idealist. i remember that i once read an article written by a parent who has a kid who graduated from ateneo. she (or he, i couldnt remember if it was a father or a mother) noticed how the valedictory speech seemed like a rhetoric. she was a bit disappointed because she didnt see the youthful idealism that she expected to see from a person who is fresh from school and who is supposed to have fresh perspectives about the world. and she was asking, was an expensive atenean education worth it? i dont mean any offense because i know that there are a lot of idealist ateneans out there, who might be more idealist than me, but that article just came back to my mind while reading mikaela's speech. maybe if the mother could read mikaela's article now, she wont lose hope in the youth.
anyway, ina and i were talking about how idealism, in a way, gradually wears off during adulthood (at least in our experience). when youre fresh from college, you have these dreams about making a change, about holding on to the values you learned from college, about living a principled life, about defying the norm in the interest of truth, about serving your country, serving the people who sent you through school, about giving back to society. but as you work and live in a dynamic environment wherein people's minds are not as easy to understand and couldnt be explained by a single theory, you learn about a new concept, that of compromise. as you meddle with people who 'have been there', you learn that somehow, you need to reorient yourself in order to survive, that somehow, you have to sometimes 'relax' your personal rules a bit and you'll have new sets of principles. and as you immerse yourself longer, you slowly realize that the idealism is waning, that youre becoming more pragmatic. not that its a bad thing but sometimes, the guilt is there.
she was telling me that this kind of idealism is peculiar of up. that in la salle, people were more self-absorbed. that social consciousness is not a norm. i couldnt react because i dont have any friends from la salle aside from her and cams. and she said she also does not have friends from up aside from jen, dangs and me. and so we appreciate the interaction, the exchange of thoughts, the sharing of perspectives.
sometimes i feel shame for myself. nahihiya ako sa nakababatang sarili ko. i always dream about change and talk with my friends about making a change but it ends there. i always talk about wanting to volunteer for some NGO but that remains unrealized up to now. i dont have the bravery that mikaela is talking about. i cant defy the pressure to lead a comfortable life. im not making new roads. im not a trailblazer. im just a part of the mob, the majority who walks through the clean, cemented path built before me.
maybe its maslow's hierarchy of needs working here. maybe not. maybe using maslow is just a good justification of my actions but the truth is im on my way to failing my younger, idealist self from its dreams. i dont know. maybe. i hope not.
i really want to go back to school now.
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