Sur(reality)

This is the second morning that I woke up with a weird feeling. Like everything is so unreal. I didn’t expect that something like this would happen. I never dreamt of talking about this with someone so close to me. So this is growing up?

I’ve cried about this. We’ve cried about this. We talked about this, yet, I still feel weird.

This is not the first time that I’ve dealt with this kind of story. But its different now because I’m so affected by it. I was not able to sleep the first time I heard it. I was thinking about it all night long, yet answers do not clearly come to my mind. I was trying to think straight knowing that this was the right thing to do. Yet, the understanding and acceptance also engulf me, and sometimes, overrides the rational mind I’ve been trying to empower.

Aaahh…life. Maybe I just have to deal with it. One part of me says I want to but the other says I don’t ...

Big Bang

Pagkatapos ng mahaba-habang paglalakbay…nope! After 100 years of solitary confinement in the recesses of my blog-less world, im back to say hi to this blog. Im sorry if I have abandoned you for the past nine months. Many things have changed since February. Yeah, you must be thinking that the more I should have written, but ironically, I could not write. I think im just too overwhelmed with various emotions that I find it too hard to conjure which words exactly define how I feel and what I think. Now I’m writing, not because I’m so ok but because I’m too shocked. Ok, maybe I’m exaggerating, or maybe I’m not.

-----------
I can feel it now. The emotional stress is slowly seeping though my veins. This is what ive been waiting to happen. The feeling of becoming, the feeling of reality.